I have not been so great at this one-post-a-week commitment, have I?
Let me explain.
There are a lot of hard things about being a parent but the absolute hardest part for me is that I have such a small amount of time to myself. I try to squeeze in exercise, writing, self-care (writing for pleasure, reading, meditating) family and social commitments, errands and housework while also juggling the all-encompassing job of keeping my child safe, fed and engaged with the world. Just an example, in the five minutes since I’ve sat down to write I have also checked my email, printed out a FedEx shipping label, started a load of laundry and eaten a handful of pretzels for lunch… and I’ve only been able to accomplish all of that because the baby is sleeping.
Right now Juniper is at the age where she must have all of her needs met RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW OH MY GOD MAMA MAMA MAMA DID YOU HEAR ME I NEED YOU TO READ ME THIS BOOK RIGHT NOW!!!! There is a lot of screeching going on in our house at the moment. There are also a lot of delectable toddler kisses and a bunch of glorious, infectious giggling, but at the end of the day I feel like I’ve snapped my head off and tossed it into the spin cycle to bang around for awhile.
Juniper’s expression translated to: I SAID I WANT MORE SPAGHETTI YOU EVIL WOMAN. WHYY? WHYYYY? CAN’T I HAVE MORE SPAGHETTI?
The problem is I always want to be writing. I want to be blogging. I want to be marketing my book and pitching magazines and writing personal essays. My body may be reading to my baby (the same book, for the fiftieth time) but my mind is always circling around my to-do list. Basically, this makes me feel like I’m half-assing everything and continuously falling short in one way or another. If I’m not neglecting myself I’m neglecting my writing. If I’m not ignoring my kid I’m ignoring my husband who is ignoring the kid so as not to ignore me. Or vice versa or something like that or oh my god am I even making sense right now.
Thus, my failure to keep my commitment to blog once a week. I know you really don’t care but I hate when I don’t keep my word. But I’m trying. I’m doing the best I can. Mom-ing is hard.
So, there’s that.
Now, on to some exciting news!
Two weeks ago I told you that I purchased 100 yellow envelopes and asked if I could mail you one. The only catch was that you had to use the envelope to pay it forward in some way.
Well, you have blown me away.
Within two days I ran out of envelopes but then two blog readers, first Patti and then Ajay, donated money to fund more envelopes/postage, etc. So now I have even more envelopes to give away! To date I have mailed over 150 envelopes to people in 16 countries and 31 states. I’ve also started a Yellow Envelope Project Facebook Page where people are beginning to share their stories and I started a new tab on the blog for those that want to learn more.
Also, my publisher recently informed me that every hard copy of The Yellow Envelope will also come with a yellow envelope inside (!!!). That means that every single person that buys the book will get a yellow envelope and therefore be nudged to commit a random act of kindness! Oh my %@# it makes me so happy.
A photo sent by a reader after her yellow envelope arrived in the UK.
If you would like to help me spread random acts of kindness around the globe I have a yellow envelope with your name on it. Please email your address to firstname.lastname@example.org and I will mail you an envelope (some have requested more than one envelope to share with friends, kids, grandkids, etc.- that’s great! Just let me know how many you need).
Now… some exciting book news.
A few of you have asked if the Kindle version of The Yellow Envelope will be available for pre-order and the answer is yes! The Kindle version is now available for pre-order here. Thank you for your support!!
Also, I recently learned that the audio book rights have sold. Yay! I had a moment of panic thinking I’d have to read my entire book into a microphone before realizing that they probably hire a professional to do that. So, if audio books are your thang keep an eye out for The Yellow Envelope in audio book format in the future.
Until next week (probably… hopefully…)