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I have a favorite quote which I have recited to myself hundreds of times over the last three years:
“There comes a time when one must risk everything or sit forever with one’s dream.”
When I decided that I wanted to leave my job and sell all my stuff to take a shot at traveling and writing full-time, I believed I was risking everything to follow the dream. I was terrified, but the thought of sitting forever with my dream was unbearable. I knew that I had to allow myself the opportunity to coax the truest part of who I am out from deep inside and bring her to life.
The risks were huge. I thought I was risking my marriage, my happiness, financial security, my career. I thought I might lose it all. There were no guarantees that anything would work out the way I hoped.
As I look back over the past couple of years, from where I sit today, I see that I really have risked a lot.
But I also see that everything that really matters was never at risk. The things I had before that truly meant something to me I still have today.
I still have my husband who is a bigger, braver version of himself. I still have my family who, even if they can’t completely understand why we’re doing what we’re doing, continue to love me. I still have my friends. I still have my dogs. I still have my health. I won’t have my career, but I have the possibility of a new career doing what I love. I don’t have a house full of stuff, or a house for that matter, but I still have everything I need.
In fact, not only do I still have everything that mattered to me before, but I have more than I had before. I have faith, now, in the bigger thing that weaves us all together; where I used to see coincidence I now see connection. I have a clear and constant channel of communication with my inner voice. I have this blog which gives me a forum to share what I write. I have hope that my big dreams will live and flourish. I have joy.
I had to be willing to risk it all, because my willingness was proof to the universe that I was ready to see this dream through to fruition.
In the end, though, the unexpected magic in it all was that I didn’t have to give up anything that truly mattered.
96 days until the journey begins.