The words will appear

by Kim on January 29, 2012 · 16 comments

I was reading through my journal earlier today and was struck by an entry from a year ago in which I documented a dream I’d had.  After re-reading the entry this morning, I can still recall the dream and how it haunted me for weeks afterwards.  

Here is an excerpt from my journal dated 1/28/11:

“A few weeks ago- a month ago?- I had a dream.  This was after the decision to travel, the blog started, etc.  After the ball started rolling, so to speak.  It’s been a few weeks so my recollection is foggy, yet it’s strange that I remember it at all, I rarely remember my dreams.

I was sitting in a theater in the audience, watching a play.  Surrounding me were actors in the play who had roles in other scenes, and I did too.  I had a role in the next scene.  Sitting there, I started to panic.  I panicked that I didn’t know my lines.  I had to get up there next and I didn’t remember my lines! I didn’t have a copy of the script.  Had I forgotten it?  I began whispering to the other actors around me, asking them if they had a script I could look at.  I tapped the girl in front of me and asked, she begrudgingly passed me her copy.  I was freaking out.  I had to get up on stage any second and even with the script I didn’t have time to memorize all of my lines.  I don’t remember what happened next.  I don’t remember if I got on stage or if the dream ended before then.

But here’s the interesting part of the dream.  The whole time the dream was playing out, there was a voice inside me, inside my dream self, saying ‘Relax, Kim, you know how to do this.  The lines are inside of you, just trust that they will come.’  My dream self was too afraid to put faith in it, but my dream soul was saying: Step on stage and the words will appear.”

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D.J. - The World of Deej January 29, 2012 at 6:20 pm

Great story…I have so many dreams that I vividly remember and contemplate their meaning. Yours it seems the meaning was clear, and glad you listened to your “dream self”:)

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 5:12 pm

Yeah, it was clear… but it is much clearer in retrospect. I never remember my dreams. I’d love to have your gift of remembering them vividly.

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Hannah January 30, 2012 at 6:44 am

Beautiful Kim. I feel exactly the same – throughout all my travel planning there has been an inner voice telling me to just do it, and I have never once thought myself crazy to follow without reservation. I think this deep belief that things will be ok is the Universe beckoning, urging us to have faith and move forward without clear sight of what we are moving towards. It’s kinda wonderful isn’t it?! Keep dreaming xxx

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 5:13 pm

It is wonderful :) I think I will always be a dreamer (I hope so).

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Sarah Somewhere January 30, 2012 at 6:49 am

Hmm… Kim’s ego freaking out, telling her she doesn’t know what she’s doing, that she is going to freeze, then her inner voice, her true voice, assuring her that she will be just fine… This is more like a premonition than a dream! One that, as always I can totally identify with… Hmm… Ego vs spirit, head vs heart, fear vs faith, reason vs belief… Like you, I’m learning to listen to the latter! :)

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 5:15 pm

I guess my dreams like to send me very, very obvious metaphors for fear that I might not figure them out otherwise. Haha. I’ll take it. When I reread it in my journal it gave me chills!

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Trisha January 30, 2012 at 7:10 am

Kim, your words resonated with my heart. I loved what you shared – such powerful words to motivate and encourage others. One of our mentors (Joe Schroeder) has a favorite saying: “Walk as if and go as though.” Usually, we get stuck in the preparation mode, trying to get everything perfect before taking action. To boldly go forth – is scary, but so worthwhile!

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 5:17 pm

I love that saying!! Yes, as people (mostly family) used to tell Brian and I about having children (which was so far off base but, whatever, it works in this situation)- there is never the perfect time. It’s true. There is never a perfect time to take a big leap, you’ll never be completely prepared, but if you do what comes from the heart things will work out fine.

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Tracy McKibben January 30, 2012 at 8:31 am

Perfect timing, and spot-on relevant. I’ve been tasked with finding ways to improve the hostile relationship between two technical groups within my company (the developers and the database administrators). One of the ways I’m tackling this is by conducting group training/technical discussions. The first of these is tomorrow morning, where I’ll be presenting to a group of over 100 attendees. By far the largest group I’ve ever spoken in front of, and a hostile crowd at that.

I’m very much taking the “just see where it goes, let the words flow” approach.

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 5:19 pm

GOOD LUCK TOMORROW!

The funny thing is, I also have a presentation to give tomorrow in front of a traditionally hostile crowd. I’ve found that when I take the “let the words flow” approach I am much more comfortable which I think they can sense, and it relaxes them a bit. Good luck, good luck, good luck!

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Jessica January 30, 2012 at 5:37 pm

Sometimes we get the most amazing insight from dreams…thanks for sharing!

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Kim January 30, 2012 at 6:12 pm

Pretty amazing, huh?

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Jason Stauffer January 31, 2012 at 4:18 pm

Dream are so much better than “reality.” It’s inspiring to see people who are living the dream.

Thanks for sharing your adventure with us.

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Kim January 31, 2012 at 5:47 pm

It is my pleasure, thank you for reading.

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Isabelle January 31, 2012 at 4:35 pm

This is freaky! I’ve had a similar dream for years. I would always end up having to be in a play, an orchestra, or be a radio host, and of course I was freaking out because nobody had told me that I was supposed to do this! It always went well, surprisingly, and I pulled it off with improv even though I didn’t know the story of the play, or can’t play violin! After a few years of this, when I dreamed that, I was able to tell myself to just relax because ‘you always get through it’ so don’t worry and just go with the flow! I guess it was a way for my mind to tell me that everything would be fine, that I could manage in any situation… And I seem to have finally understood because after years of this, I don’t have the dream anymore!

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Kim January 31, 2012 at 5:51 pm

That’s so weird! I’m happy to say that that was the first and last time I’ve had that dream. It will be interesting to see what pops up, subconsciously, as I get closer and closer to leaving.

I’m glad you don’t have the dream anymore!

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